stabby jo

is next to me right now. i havent felt this exhilirated in weeks. :)

Pardon

Pardon me for thinking that I wasn't good enough,
And pardon me for wanting you to look instead of touch.

Pardon me for trying hard to make you love me more,
And pardon you for being blind and showing me the door.

Pardon me for seeing something that simply wasn't there,
Pardon you for believing that I simply did not care.

Pardon you for being nice, when for my sake you shouldn't.
Pardon me for dreaming you to do things that you wouldn't.

Pardon you for being perfect and intoxicating me,
Pardon you for giving me light and helping me to see.

Pardon us for trying, and fixing broken mends.
Pardon us for trying to make it work as simply friends.

Pardon me for living.
Pardon me for breath.

And pardon you forever.

Pardon, I will love you to my death.

Im being followed

As it turns out I am being followed by an old woman with red shoes. I got on the bus promptly at 2:45 and noticed and old woman sitting on the bench with red shoes. After traveling down 19th on the 28 I got off at Judah, an the N line carried me up to UCSF. After doing my important things I waited for the 43 and noticed a pair of red shoes poking out from the bus stop overhang. After realizing it was the same woman, I chuckled and went on with life. I got off at Forrest Hill and and was swept away by the M to Stonestown. After buying yet another pair of jeans I prepared myself to take my last bus to Lake Merced and be done, when alas.. the woman with the red shoes joined me on the 29. I felt strange, but she didnt seem to notice me... which is why i am positive that I am being followed.

overwhelmed

I feel like I am drowning in pre-requisites, units, and the definite feeling of "never being able to catch up". I woke up for the first time in my college career in a panic because I just realized that I am never going to graduate and I am taking all the wrong classes, along with the fact that I want all my questions answered but knowing that they will probably remain unanswered till it's to late. HELP.

Good News!

I am now officially not white. After un-intentional sun bathing I am now a milk shade of tan. GO ME.

On a hungry note, my kitchen has been in construction for weeks and my diet has been limited to sugar free jello and peanuts.

Robotron,

Even though we are to be parted for a whole week, a whole seven days, a whole 168 hours, i will not be sad. I will think of our fun times together and it will keep me going through my week. You are hauntingly beautiful. Long exaggeration short.... i have separation anxiety.

the overlooked trio,

I have recently jumped back into the 90's sound of Hanson. DONT JUDGE. I ran into the song "this time around" in a mess of TV show soundtrack songs. I quickly perked up my ears and found that this song truly made me feel good. Now what better existence for a song, than to make someone feel happy? Even if it is by a group of teen long haired boys who are still discovering puberty.


Its getting colder in this ditch where I lie
Im feeling older and Im wondering why
I heard they told her it was tell and live or die
I didnt know her but I know why she lied
I didnt know her but I know why she died

You cant say I didnt give it
I wont wait another minute
Were on our way this time around
You cant say I didnt give it
I wont wait another minute
Were on our way this time around

And we wont go down

I heard them say that dreams should stay in your head
Well I feel ashamed of the things that Ive said
Put on these chains and you can live a free life
Well Id rather bleed just to know why I die

All I know is that fear has got to go
This time around

Ive started feeling like I dont want to fight
Give in to the given and put out the light
Cannons a blazing shower these moonlit skies
Then I remember and I know why he died
Do you know why I die



see?? joy :)

Art,

hath an enemy called ignorance